♥ Wednesday, December 28, 2005♥

i guess it's just too bad.

♥ Beverly

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so the last post was a little screwy. didn't want to blog last night cos was tired. ok. so far i've completed amath and physics. not too bad. but i've got chem and emath left. die. gonna take a long time. school gonna reopen soon.

hmm. wanna watch wallace and gromit: the curse of the were-rabbit. seems like a nice show. so does memoirs of a geisha. so many movies to watch, so little time.

ooh. there's a.n.t.m tonight. so can't wait. the good shows on tv are coming back! but school's gonna start soon. crap.

ok. dinner time. gotta go eat. ciao!

♥ Beverly

♥ Monday, December 26, 2005♥

so woke up today with a stomachache. everyone in the household has the runs. haha. think it's because of my of the curry grandma cooked last night. even my cousins have it. but ironically granny herself wasn't affected. haha. so i'm going to complete my amath soon! yay! but there's so much more to do! on top of that, there's tuition homework. think i will do it tmrw.

hmm. have been thinking and thinking about loads of things. really complicated. but it seems that i shouldn't be worrying. gives me headaches. sigh.

school's gonna start soon. like in a week's time. still don't feel the rush to study. crap! there's tests too!! argh. better do a better job next year or i'll just die. haha!

so listening to lifehouse's "hanging by a moment". love that song. alright. going to catch some Zzz's now. bye yah.

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer to where I started
chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all I'm lacking
completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
and I don't know what I'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
there's nothing else to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else
there is nothing else

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer to where I started
chasing after you

♥ Beverly

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this christmas doesn't feel christmas-y. hmm.

went to my auntie's place on christmas eve to celebrate. food was great. but was really full from eating the pie. haha. dessert was great. as always. went for midnight mass. today was ok. went to my grandma's place to celebrate x'mas again. haha. love her food. so this is how i spend my x'mas. haha.

think i better complete my holiday homework before this week ends. time past so fats this holiday. but the first few weeks were really slow. haha. weird.

it's late now. so tired from eating and all. haha. should catch up on some sleep. nights.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

♥ Beverly

♥ Friday, December 23, 2005♥

argh. got a smashing headache now. crap. x'mas party tmrw. anyways. other than the headache. life's pretty good. haha. benben outing was great! dinner at cartel was great. especially when your sharing with lings! haha. eat and eat and eat. dessert after dessert. ribs heavenly. family picture turned out great! after dinner, went walked to esplanade. real long walk! had to take our time to walk cos of the surprise. but the plan wasn't screwed up. thank goodness. strolled around the esplanade mall. then they called, say go to the bridge. then it was the surpises and exchanging of presents. took pictures. the jmbys and sac. then michelle and i wanted to go home. took a cab. waited and waited. but it was ok la. watched a little of the chinese show. then had a shower. watched a.n.t.m while doing my tuition homework. this season seems nice. then watched the simple life. then it was off to bed.

yesterday was ok. chinese tuition in the morning. then did some holiday homework. then was off to physics tuition. ooh. witnessed a car accident. real bad. then went home. watched somemore tv. played boggle with dad and my brother. then went to sleep. super cold man. today woke up at 12.30. then had brunch. did some more holiday homework. then did some more x'mas shopping with mom and my brother. had early dinner. then came home bathed. and now i'm here. waiting for the chinese show to start.

tmrw going to my auntie's place to celebrate x'mas. can't wait. the food. yum. ok. gotta go now. blog some other time. ciao.

♥ Beverly

♥ Monday, December 19, 2005♥

ohkay. prepared the x'mas presents on monday. wasn't finish yet though. not sure if i got everyone's gifts. nerve-wrecking man. later give everyone then miss out that one or two people, feel damn embarrassed la. the torment. haha. then went over to granny's place for dinner. no big deal la yesterday. but was online till late.

yesterday woke up at 11.30. was getting up then falling back to sleep like 10 times. cos my brother was shouting at me for going back to sleep. haha. at least he manage to wake me up. had brunch. read the papers. blah blah blah. the usual. then something happened. i grabbed my tuition homework, sat down, took a pen and started writing chinese words on my foolscap paper. haha. obviously i was watching tv la. can't live without the black box. haha. helped mom prepare dinner. showered. got ready for tuition. had dinner. then made my way to tuition. was super windy. my hair was flying all over the place. haha. like it never does. tuition for 2 hours. my eyes. were killing me.

today was fun. woke up at 10.30, but my eyes were still closed. mom told me that dad was gonna take me to buy school shoes. i went "ok" then i went back to sleep for 5-10 minutes. woke up again. had breakfast. changed, rushed to suntec with my brother and dad. got the shoes. rushed back cos dear father was already half an hour late for his lunch appointment. had lunch. did some tuition homework. did the dishes. changed, pack my bag. mom came back from work, then we headed down to the pines, where we met my cousins and aunties. swam, did crazy stuff. haha. then we went to the arcade. next was dinner. we were high and all. haha. went home at 8.30. bathed. watched the mew chinese show. pretty nice i must say. haha. did somemore chinese homework. then wanted to sleep. but mom reminded me to wrap the presents up. totally forgot about it man. so i just finished wrapping the presents. now i'm here. gonna watch the nanny soon i think. haha. since i'm still up, may as well. tmrw's the big day. hope everyone appreciates the presents. hope the whole thing goes well. ok. the nanny just started. going now. bye yah!

♥ Beverly

♥ Saturday, December 17, 2005♥

so very tired now. was out the whole day. woke up at 11.30. had a quick shower before we left for grandma's. lunch was great. love it. next stop was my auntie's house. left granny's place at 1.50. reached there at 2.30. played twister. love that game la. haha. watched old episodes of phua chu kang. really old. haha. left at 4.30. went home. had another shower. then picked mom up from tanglin. went to town. bought stuff. came back to tp. went to buy baking stuff. so i can bake my cookies. came home. shag and all. haha. now i'm playing neopets. just won 10,000 neopoints! love that scratchcard thing. haha! think i'm gonna do some holidya homework tmrw. way way behind time. sigh. haven't done anything besides the emath and amath paper. sigh. anyways. christmas is coming soon. but benben outing coming sooner!!! can't wait!!! i love those people! haha.

anyways. i'm hooked on linkin park now. don't know la. saw fort minor on mtv just now. then they played faint by linkin park. and now i can't stop listening to it. haha.

let me see, tmrw, there's baking and dinner at grandma's again. hmm. think there'll be time in the afternoon to do some homework. ok. shall do that. wanna play sudoku now. ciao.

♥ Beverly

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hello. came back from bugis not too long ago. went for dinner with my brother's girlfriend. then we went street shopping. bought a bag there. pretty good bargain. love it.

let's talk about yesterday. woke up at 9.30 for tuition. was freaking tired. then slack till 5 plus. got ready to go for physics tuition. wah lao. was the only one there la. cos there's only two people in the class. haha. so it was like a one-to-one lesson. haha. was let of half an hour early. so went to ntuc. bought stuff. chocolates to be exact. slack around then played boggle with my brother and dad. super fun! i love that game. the person who invented it is super cool. haha.

hai yah. i'm tired now. wanna go sleep. but i want to have a game of boggle now! haha. ok. going to play now. haha. bye!

♥ Beverly

♥ Tuesday, December 13, 2005♥

hello.

so monday was ok. went for tuition from 4 to 8. that was mostly my day.

yesterday was fun. went to wisma with my mom and brother to get my jacket! finally! like i've been day-dreaming about it. sweet. so met the rest after getting the jacket. then we took pictures. made our way to centrepoint. was drizzling a little. everyone was late! anyways. the fish and chips was not enough. but i didn't want to spend more money on little portions of food. haha. seems like i eat a lot huh. anyways. went home alone. the rest went ceni and taka i think. missed the bus. reached home at 8.30.

so today woke up at 9.30a.m. super tired! but i pulled myself outta bed. yeah. took a quick shower before heading out with my mom and brother. met my auntie and cousins at causeway point. spend a long time there. from like 11 to 5.30? yeah. that was how long. we practically went to every shop in that building. haha. ooh. lunch was great. the tom yam soup was a tad too spicy for me though. the beggar's chicken was nice, especially the bread crust. really good. bought loads of stuff man. brother had to go for tuition so we went back to tp. dad came to send brother to tuition. so the rest of us went to fork and spoon for dinner. so full. then we went to the crystal jade cakery. so crowded. did some more shopping. went home at 9.45. reached home at 10.

i've got tuition tmrw. chinese and physics. sigh. my legs are aching now. have been walking for close to 10 hours. haha. cool. hope to lose some fats around the leg area. haha. thinking about loads of stuff still though. lotsa things going through my mind.

the amazing race just ended. the linz family won. i like that family. but i like the weavers too. but at least someone i liked won. haha. i think i'm going to bed early tonight. my eyes are like closing already. haha. ok. bye now.

♥ Beverly

♥ Sunday, December 11, 2005♥

today seems like a very long day. probably it's because i woke up very early this morning. cos i normally wake up at 12-1? yeaps. today was good. did some tuition homework and amath paper. but there's still a lot to complete.

i'm hooked on the freaky friday song. cos i watched it on friday. yeah. so now it's in my head, again.

♥ Beverly

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i've got plenty questions in my mind. too many to even start finding an answer.
it's way too difficult to think now. feeling as if there's a really heavy burden for me to take on.
but i'm simply not cut out to make it happen.
if your expecting something extravagant in the end, i'm sorry, it's not gonna happen.
cos it's simply out of my power to provide you with such luxury.
it's not right if you want materialistic objects from me, cos that's not how it's suppose to be.
i know how you'd react if i don't produce anything, cos you said something really appalling.
i'm not giving you something worth tens of thousands of dollars, but i hope it's good enough to put a little smile on your face.
i really wish you wouldn't take me the wrong way, cos i'm simply not what you want me to be.

just came back from my auntie's place. very tired. was suppose to join them to go for this funfair. but i have too much homework to complete. there's tuition homework, school homework and my own revision. i've to at least finish my tuition homework by today cos i plan to do my own revision tmrw, then there's physics and amath tuition. then on tuesday, there's the class dinner, so i guess i wouldn't be in the mood for homework. then i'm going out with my mom and auntie on wednesday, so i'll be out the whole day. the next day is already tuition. so i'm packed. sigh. but this is the kind of life i want, hectic and packed.

the stayover was so fun! we were playing with all the jewelry and make-up. brings back the good old days when my cousins and i would play around. haha. bbq was nice. i burnt the corn though. heehee. marshmallows was good. helped many people roast their's. then tent beside the bbq pit was a great idea. we should have that up more often. haha. sparklers was fun too. there were many people there this time, many family friends and family. haha. was pretty shagged after the bbq, slept at 12.

i'm hooked on neopets again. haha. so fun! can't stand it.

♥ Beverly

♥ Thursday, December 08, 2005♥

ellos! so i'm just waiting for dinner to be ready. not that hungry though. woke up at 9.20 for tuition. was so very tired. tuition was fine. better than i expected it to be. was helping mom get ready the bbq food for this sat. quite fun i must say. haha. but the tutor gave me so much homework.

at around 3, the tuition centre called saying that the teacher was sick so lesson today was cancelled. was so glad. but then it would be postponed to this coming monday at 4. so i'll be spending 4 hours at the tuition centre for amath and physics. wonder how would it turn out. haha.

oh. i'm so proud of myself! i manage to complete one emath paper yesterday! haha. was relieved. but there's so much more to finish! haha. i'll not be able to do anything this weekend cos i'll be at my auntie's place. yeah. so i think i'll start on monday. sigh.

ok. i shall go have my dinner now, then watch tv the whole night!

♥ Beverly

♥ Wednesday, December 07, 2005♥

i seriously have to sit down and complete my holiday homework. i also have to study for 2 or 3 tests when school reopens. there's only 3 weeks of holiday left and i'm not even halfway done. i actually planned to start studying when december started but it seems like i'll never ever start. darn it. i think i'll set aside 3 hours each day to study. but it seems like a chore. i tell myself every night that i have to study the next day, but i never keep to it. sigh. it just isn't right. i should focus! if i wanna do well, i should study, study, study. i think i better start today.

ok. so i just woke up two hours ago. i'm still tired. cos i rested to long. haha. oh wells. brother bought a new computer yesterday. yeah. he just left the house for his prom. how lucky. but come to think of it, i'll be going to one of my own next year. haha. but before that i've to study! crap. everything is related to studying. sigh.

so my chinese tutor is gonna come tmrw morning. and the room is a mess! books everywhere. sigh. gotta clean it up. i might be going for physics tuition tmrw too. but there's only two students in the class at the moment. yeah. and i'll be going to my cousin's place on friday. can't wait. staying there till sunday i think. yeah. so my weekend is burnt. then i'll be going for tuition on monday. tuesday's gonna be the class dinner. can't wait for that too! but for now i gotta go clean my room before i do anything else. haha.

♥ Beverly

♥ Saturday, December 03, 2005♥

hey there!

so i'm like sick now. sneezing away like nobody's business. anyways, went to popular to buy some books. should buck up for my ss and history. sighs.

anyway. shall not worry myself too much. we've got the class dinner! yay! can't wait. and bbq at my auntie's place.

i'm blogging random stuff. sucks.

ok. shall end here now.

ciao!

♥ Beverly